Posted at ยป 7:33 AM
Monday, February 16, 2009
I am blogging again. Got mood lor....my blog followers need to be very patience wan. Hahaha jk. Anyway its been a long 3 months. Holiday? Rest? Nah i just worked and learned a lot. So here goes. I have reached a staged where carreer for me to choose is at hand, becuz i need to choose a job at the end of this year. Either i will go ahead with gold gold or work with the BANKS. Yes there is tons of stuff that i havent explore and i have plunged my head into Gold already. Which is 10% related with what i studied.
b4 my readers go on reading...the below written is all my thoughts...so it will be complicated. I am writting this as a diary. So it will be draggy and loads with bad grammer. Be Warned.
I am here in a crossroad where both side seems bright. One where many have traveled and succeded. The other few had travel and few had succeded. So i am thinking. If i choose their the road i might not be happy, but if i choose the other i will be happy. But is happiness enough to cover the sacrifices that u are going to make along the way. I have not reach there yet so i would not know.
Besides, i feel that i am useless working in gold gold. Its not that i cant do well in the jewellery....i can actually but its the other stuff. U see what i have been doing is just COPY COPY Copy everything other ppl do. I dont use my brain and try to solve problems. I dunno is it the bad memory that i have inherited. But anyway its this habit of following what other ppl say. Do this and that...follow and accept (quote from cheras)
I dont seem to be able to manage myself and others around. I know it can be learned but it needs time. I always lack focus and when i do a reapeated task i can just blanked out and my hands will keep doing the task. And when it passed i will have no memory over what i have done....weird huh. Its like my subconcious mind has taken over. It has become a habit till i dont use my brain and think of what i am doing.
So i feel useless when simple problems can be solved but i cant do it and my collegue will say that i am like children and duno how to do things. Anyway this is part of it.
The other part is my job....actually i love it but when it comes to the factory part i dont say i hate it but i just like it. Not in love with it. So i was thinking that if i keep doing this factory job like kuli like that. Then very sien lor if do long already. And i am not learning anything lor. So i see how it goes through this whole year.
I want to pursuit my career here but if they dont teach me more i might not know whether this job is my destiny...as i havent fully tried it out yet. I mean the process of making jewelery.
So for now i let time tell and i need to make a backup plan. What am i saying i already got a backup plan which is going to Banking or ask my boss to fly me to Holland and work there. Lolz. If not i have to ask advices from my boss, in what is her plan for me and so on.
I wrote this bcuz i got loads of advices from friends and family...more like critism on what is my plan. I guess they are worried and they believe that i may regret. They advice me about what the outcome maybe and said "if you think that the sacrifices is worth it and u are still happy then its fine"
Actually when i was eating lunch with my collegue in a cafe and i see the office ppl dress in formal wear and have so much money. I think well it does not mean office ppl will have loads of money. Maybe it would be more difficult for me, but who knows. who knows.
What i want is not just become jeweller but explore other carrer and jobs. I may never know what other jobs that i could have loved. Cuz i got youth where else my collegue are all old d...they depend on this job...while i still can fly far and wide.
This is added in the last minute: i read the poem the road less travelled. When iwas young i dont even understand but now i understood clearly. Yes the other road may have the better claim, but what the heck i choose the one less travelled anyway. Life is an adventure anyway.
So for now till the end of this year i will just see see look look and pay attention to my studies for now. AND I got to start using the most powerful thing in my body. ..the brain. Dont think other stuff. Lolz.
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